Okay so I'm going to rant about every hopeless romantics favorite subject.... LOVE!

First off I suck at poetry so please don't complain it's just some stupid thing I wrote in one of my classes because, Hey!, geuss what? I get DEPRESSED, yeah just like every f ing one else in the world I get depressed. anyway... here's my poem... bare with the crappyness

Love is overated,
hope is self desruction,
Faith is nothing but pain,
Harmony is a waste of time,
Peace is a delusion,
And death is the only solution.

Now I would just like to say now before i get any comments that NO!!! I do not f ing cut my self I'm just EMO as in EMOTIONAL!!!! and jut so the idiots out there know NOT ALL EMO'S CUT that is so d annoying CUTTERS are the ones who CUT EMOS don't while yes all cutters are emotionally not all emos cut themselves okay? got it? hm?? Okay good. Now another thing you all should know. I am a hopeless romantic who has been scorn by love, and while I do believe it's out there I'm not sure it's waiting for me, okay? Thank you Now then...Where was I?.... OH yeah well I personally have HAD it with love because EVERY single time I think I find Mr. Right it turns out he's either a slease, likes one of my friends, (which by the way is F ING annoying ike come on what's wrong with me? geezum...) or likes younger girls... I mena okay the first guy i ever kissed says he regret EVER having kissed me...the second guy i kissed only asked me out because he was (A.) Dared to and (B.)thought that i was a whore whichis BS because damn it I'm saving that for someone special, OH and he's the REALLy hilarious thing (*bitterly laughs*) Thsi guy transversinto my school last year last quarter and has just broken up with his girlfriend, and I mean he's SOOOO good at drawing and he's funny and he's okay with the things I like and he's soooo good looking and he was an awsome voice and I start falling head over heels for him and then my friend tries to help me out and only makes it worse ans i give him my number and e-mail address cause I want to talk to him over the brake cause if nothing else I want to be his friend before i make a make and I also didn't make a move the ENTIRE last quarter cause ,and i find this hysterical, I don't want to ovcer step my boundaries or whatever. So this school years I find out not only does he now have a NEW girlfriend BUT his girlfriend is a FRESHMEN!!!! (no offense freshman It's just I'm a senior and so is his and it's annoying and hurtful to my already microscopic pride to loose to one of you. <3) And yet another kicker here is my friends keep telling me she's not attractive so I start feeling good about myself, right? Like maybe I do stand a chance, right? WRONG nope not only is she NOT ulgeh she's GORGEOUS but she's got LITTLE SELF COFIDENCE!!! This makes my made by the way all you little skinny pretty perfect girls with you thinking you're fat and ugly so KNOCK IT OFF PUHLEASE!!!!! It's hard for girls like me who are ulgy and fat gosh(See any of the photos I've posted of myself in my gallery for evidence cause that's pretty much what i look like know only with red hair on top and black on bottom). So now I'm in this perpetuaal hell where I cant have what I want and i'm depressed because I want something that if I take it away will TOTALLY and COMPLETELY brake this young Freshman, who even though I don't know a lot about, I feel that I have some weird kinship with, OH by the way she looks like me only skinnier and a WHOLE lot prettier, I mean I'd hate to say it but it kind of seemed like to me he was trying to get a knock off of me which it SOOOO stupid I mean for goodness sakes how can he not tell I like him? I where my FREAKING HEART ON MY SLEEVES!!! So yeah I'm not going to lie he hit ALL of my insecurities in one foul sweep... And you wanna hear the best part?

I STILL like him! Even though he like's her I STILL like him A LOT and I can't blame him! because let's face it I'm NEVER anyone's first choice EVER... So yes in conclusion I am a hopeless romantic and still hold out that maybe one day he'll come to his senses and realize that I like him and he likes me but if not whatever I'm used to being walked all over by guys I like, it's typical...

Thank you SOOO much for putting up with my BS and self loathing If you even read it...,
<3 PrincessOfBlackDeath